Why do people come to me for advice? I am a terrible person to ask for advice.

I've been noticing kind of a weird pattern evolving when talking to people. And the number of people this happens with is slowly but surely increasing...

How a conversation goes for normal people:

Person 1:Hello

Person 2: Hey what's up?

Person 1: Oh not much, just chillen.

Person 2: Cool.

How conversations have been going for me as of late:

Person 1: Hello

Me: Hey what's up?

Person 1: Oh not much, I've just been really depressed lately and it feels as if a black hole has taken the place of my heart and I will never love again because everyone hates me and I'm just empty inside because of all the problems in my life. FIX IT PLZ.

Me: O_____________O

Because Tyler will kill me if I don't blog soon.

I haven't blogged in like a week or something. My bad. Mostly, I've just been last because it's spring break and stuff. Yeah! I guess I'll just break it down into days.



Wednsday

Zak accused me of stealing his iPod to get back at him for stealing my phone the day before. So, He stole my phone (again) and promised to give it back when I gave him his iPod back (which I actually didn't have.) And that is about the most interesting thing that happened.



Thursday

Absolutely nothing happened that I remember. Except I got these brownies from Mariah becauseLyndsey and I beat her and Lily in Badminton.



Friday

I played Lyndsey in Badminton because she said she could beat me, loser had to bake the winner something. At first she won, but then she wanted to go double or nothing and I won, so I made her bake me a strawberry cake with white frosting and pink letters that said, "Kaitlin is awesome <3">

then I went to the Bijou later to hang out with Mookie and others. It ended up being just Mookie and I for a while, so we were just talking about random stuff and it was cool. Then Matt and Kenyon and Connett showed up, and we were hanging out some more, and they are now determined to pop my personal bubble since I'm the only person in Mount Vernon that still has one, apparently. That was fun.

Saturday

Nothing happened until like eight, when we all went to Zak's house, and everyone crammed into my car and we went into town to go play laser tag! That was an adventure, but then we got there finally and laser tag was really expensive and you didn't even get to go for that long so we went bowling instead which was still pretty cool, because I didn't totally suuuuck. Then we were done bowling and we didn't want to go home because that's lame. So, we went to another small town nearby to the super walmart, and we tried to re-enact http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=64aTVG5PF38 <--this video, but there was like no one there and so it kind of failed a little bit. Then we went back to MV, got a pizza, and went to bug Seamus at the Bijou. We were going to hook Forgetting Sarah Marshall up to the projector, but they couldn't figure out how to make it work so we just blasted music and hung out. Then we went to Zak's house, where we watched the movie. And I got home at around five in the morning. Yay for no curfews!! :D

Sunday

Absolutely nothing happened. I slept a lot and dealt with family drama, woohooo.

Monday

More of nothing happened. This was a bad start to spring break.

Tuesday

I had rehearsal, which was alright except I kept getting yelled at for breathing incorrectly. Then after rehearsal I went home and ran errands with my grandma, and had this really good sandwich at the Skillet which is a local cafe. It was fantastic. But then I went home and learned that there was a party at Seamus' house at eight, so I went to that and it was less of a party and more of me and four guys hanging out, which was slightly awkward and really funny until Janelle and Annabeth arrived. Then we decided to watch another movie (Chicago) because I had never seen it and that was awesome. Then Janelle, Alex, Brandon, and Annabeth had to leave so it was me, Mookie, Seamus and Zak. Seamus had to stay since it was his house and his parents were home, so Zak and Mookie and I decided to go haunted housing! But then Zak's mom called him and he had to leave too, so Mookie and I were going to go but then he couldn't remember where it was so we just drove around for an hour and a half, talking. Which was fun. Then I came home and went to sleep.

Today!

I was woken up by my grandma and her friend Joanie, who had brought me over this St. Patrick's Day gift thing. Which was really very sweet, but I was half awake and just wanted them to leave. But anyway, I decided to wear a skirt and then went to rehearsal, and Seamus and I were going to hang out afterwards so I could show him the wonders of Psych. But then he decided that before we did that, we had to go adventuring! So, I parked at his house and we walked all around town, and he bought me this cookie from Fuel which was possibly the best cookie ever. And then he took me around the quarry which is a pond now, and it was very muddy and windy and not good skirt-wearing conditions but it was awesome and fun! Then we went back to my house to watch Psych, which I think is his new favorite show now, obviously. hahaha. Then I took him home so he could go to work and I hung out with my grandparents the rest of the night.

That has been my spring break so far.

I go back to December all the time.

Today was alright. I fell asleep at like seven thirty last night, because I kind of got home from practice and crashed. I didn't feel well at all. part of that might be the fact that I only got three hours the night before.

Woke up this morning, had three new texts from him. :D

Went to school, that was cool and stuff. I left my phone ungaurded for literally thirty seconds during lunch to dump my tray, I got back to my spot, my phone was gone and Seamus and Zak were halfway out of the lunchroom. But they wouldn't admit to stealing it, so I had all my friends text my phone random stuff to annoy them. Finally, I gave Zak a ride to practice, and I got my phone back, and had 112 unread messages. hahahahahaha.

So we started blocking today! That was really cool. Anddd, I finally told Zak that I would go to prom with him.

After practice, we all went to Dairy Queen and that was fun. And I gave Zak and Lyndsey a ride home, and now the guy I actually might like just a little bit thinks I'm in love with his best friend.

FUCK.

These children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women and cheap drinks.

I love 3OH!3. Haha.

I did absolutely nothing today. Except made some nutella brownies which were pretty cool I guess.

Blahhhh. I hate Sundays.

I have rehearsal tomorrow from 3:30-6. And on Tuesday we start blocking. Wooooooo.

I've been so tired lately. I think Mr. Seamus got me sick. Blah.

MY FUCKING NIGHT.

That sounds dirty. Whatevs.

So I fell asleep again this afternoon until like, 6:15. Fail. I had a dream that all the freshmen at my new school had formed this really scary cult thing and they locked me and my friends in my Anatomy classroom. But then, I woke up and got ready to leave cause I was supposed to pick Rachel and Lyndsey up at 7 to see Beastly! So we drove into town blasting 3OH!3 and Kesha. Fun times. The movie started and VANESSA HUDGENS was in it. I laughed and joked that High School Musical was going to haunt me for the rest of my life. BUT THEN, one of the songs in the movie just happened to be a song that Seamus had given me on the first mix cd. THEN, Neil Patrick Harrison (Or whatever his name is) was ALSO in that movie, and he is Seamus' hero. That was a little weird, haha.

So we left, and were driving back to our town when these douchebags in the lane over started going really fast then slowing down. So we decided to race them down the interstate, and we got to a stoplight where the guy was spelling out his number to Lyndsey (With his girlfriend sitting right next to him. HAHAHA.)

I dropped Rachel and Lyndsey off cause they had to be home early. Then Seamus texted me asking me to come to a private showing of Rango with him, Mookie, the other Bijou workers and some friends at midnight. But it was only 11 something, so I went over there early and hung out with him and Matt [: that was alright. We helped him clean up and stuff, then everyone got there and it was fun. After the movie, we discovered that Mookie has a tendency to light stuff on fire. He put a bunch of hand sanitizer on the glass candy counter and lit it on fire. It was fantastic!

Then Seamus and Annabeth went home (Lame) so Kenyon, Mookie, Matt and I got the brilliant idea to go to the abandoned house in the middle of NOWHERE. So we did, and were halfway up the driveway when we realized that we forgot a flashlight! So we had to drive back to the Bijou, where I got a shitton of candy (yay) and a huge ass flashlight and we went back to the house, which was really creepy and I was convinced that a serial killer (Or Jason) was going to come out and murder us. Or, possibly the Children of the Corn. We hung out there, but cars kept driving past and we had to keep ducking and turning all our lights off so we decided to leave before we got murdered/arrested. So then, we decided to kidnap some kid named Kyle (Whom I don't know but everyone else does), so we snuck to his house and they were tapping on his window and calling him but he didn't answer, so we left and were driving around. Then Kenyon had to go home, so Mookie, Matt and I snuck back into the Bijou and they were telling me stories about how they got away with drawing penises in Sharpie on one of their friend's windows. Then I got more free candy and stuff, and finally we had to go home.

All in all, I would say this was a very satisfying night.

And if Tyler isn't happy with this blog, I don't know what will satisfy that child. :D

I'm alive, and I don't need a witness to know that I survived.

So this week started off with me getting another mix CD! Sweet. And Seamus was not subtle about it at all. But the rest of the week was filled with practice for High School Musical, and some drama, and some YAY moments, and some >_____> moments. But, on Thursday I decided that I should make Seamus a mix cd, because he had been showing me all this awesome (albeit slightly hipster) music, and I needed to show him some of my awesome music. So, I told Lyndsey about this super secret mission, but I didn't tell her what it was at first, so she decided to tell everyone that my super secret mission was that I was having an abortion. Bahaha. Anyway, my CD ended up looking like this:


I put "This is not from Kaitlin" on it so I could be as subtle as Seamus [:
So I had Lyndsey put it on his locker Friday, which was also an early out! At least, for normal people. I had rehearsal, in which I got yelled at a lot because I either don't breathe right, or I forget to breathe at all before I sing. Whoops.

Then I fell asleep ridiculously early last night, probably because I didn't feel very well. And I woke up ridiculously early this morning, which was slightly annoying but better than sleeping in too late, because then I just feel tired all day.

THINGS TO DO TODAY:

1. Clean La-a
2. Write how-to speech
3. study facial muscles for Anatomy
4. do something else that I can't remember at the moment
5. Read the not-slave narratives
6. do math homework
7. type up resumee for Advanced comp
8. study music
9. study lines
10. Go see a movie with Lyndsey and Rachel

We were going to go laser tagging instead, but not enough people could go, since the girls basketball team won and there is a big game tonight!

I am a horrible blogger

But I just didn't really feel like blogging yesterday!

So I got up early-ish, and picked Lyndsey up at noon and we went to the mall one (or two?) town over. We got there and ate food first (Panda Express, orange chicken is very om nom nom-able.) Thenn, we went ice skating! It was fantastic, but I fell twice and there were these little kids who were upstaging us which was kind of blahh ;-;

But Lyndsey and I were just skating, and talking about boys, and life, and how stupid boys piss us off, and then after about an hour and a half or so we got bored and left the rink to go try on dresses. Twas lots of fun, but after a while it turned from us trying on cute dresses to me being Lyndsey's personal barbie doll, since I'm the one possibly going to prom and not her. Observe:

So anyways. Today was all boring and monday-like. Except there was rehearsal tonight, where I learned that I have a lisp that I never knew existed, and Josh and Zak thought it would be funny to keep picking me up and carrying me around. -.-

Yeah. Okay. Here's a song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zMdfS4gxJZU

Why today ROCKED.

1) We only had to run three laps in Gym today, and then we played Badminton! I like this unit. Cause it's awesome. And I don't hate my teacher as much right now.

2) We did publicity stuff for High School Musical instead of speeches in speech class today. And I was blasting the on-stage version so that my fiends could hear how cheesy the acting is. :D

3) Second hour, Josh came up to me and was all, "Kaitlin, which locker is yours?" So I told him 147. And he said, "Cause there is a Sunkist soda outside of Locker 47 and a note that says 'To the resident of locker 47' on top of that." And so we went to look and there was. And I just thought that was weird. But then at lunch, he came up to me with a CD and said, "I looked again and this was underneath it." And that picture up there is the CD, with my last name blurred out. And for the rest of the day I was staring at it wanting to know what was on it. So finally, I showed it to Annabeth, who said it looked like Seamus' handwiting. And I was all OH SEAMUS WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT IS THIS.

4) Rehearsal was cancelled. :c But then, Seamus texted me asking if I wanted to rehearse our songs anyway. So we met up at the high school (We would've gone to the middle auditorium but there was some little kid dance party going on and they had Karaoke in there) and we were there just singing, and goofing around and talking in my Anatomy teacher's classroom for about two hours. And I asked him about the CD, but he seemed genuinely confused so I don't think it was him. Annabeth and I have a mission to find who it was, now.

5) I had Subway. And it was delicious.

6) I had to be an escort for the MVHS Male Beauty Pageant (hahahahaha) which I thought would be really lame. But I got there, and Connett and Marcus were in dresses, connett was wearing heels and Marcus just regular tennis shoes. It was fantastic. They were singing and dancing, and then the actual pageant part was just pure win and that is another blog post in itself. But, I was escorting Mookie along with two other people, and he ended up winning! Which I predicted, because he was halarious. [:

7) After, Mookie had to work and so Annabeth invited me to hang out with them at his work (the little one screen movie theatre here), so we went to the parking lot but we had to wait for his boss to leave, and so we were just chillen in my car for 45 minutes, talking about prom and speech and everything, and hardcore creeping. Then she finally left and like fifteen people walked into the tiny lobby (which was like the size of my room) and we were chillen, laughing and trying to stay quiet, and Mookie gave us all the free popcorn and drinks and candy we wanted. UMMM SCOREEEE. And we got to go up to the projection room and it was fantastic.

8) I just got home like, half an hour ago. And listened to the mystery CD. and whoever it was has awesome taste in music and I kind of love them a lot. AND NOW I REALLY NEED TO KNOW WHO MADE IT.

9) The only not awesome part of today was me trying to text Him and kind of getting rejected a little bit. But, he's also working on his OO, and so maybe that's why. Since he's supposed to have it done tomorrow, at like seven. So I can understand the abrupt goodbye a little bit. I don't like him or anything, what gives you that idea?

Basically today rocked. Andddd, it felt like a Thursday but it's Friday! Awesome!

WE. WIN.

me: -poke-

him: -jump with surprise-

Me: [:

Him: -react instincively by punching you in the face-

Me: ;-;
-dies-

Him: -mourns at funeral, then eats a brownie and moves on with life-

Me: -haunts you forever-
-and also, steals brownie-

Him: -enjoys being haunted-

Me: -O_o-

Him: -punches you in the face for stealing my brownie-

Me: -I'M DEAD YOU CAN'T PUNCH ME IN THE FACE-

Him: I can punch anything in the face. It's in the CONSTITUTION

Me: ummmm nope.
there is a clause for dead people.
because, you know, they're dead.
SO THERE.

Him: Read on. It goes on to say that dead brownie stealers deserve to die again, so they can be punchedeth in the face.

Me: But if they die again, wouldn't that mean they're just brought back to life?

Him: No, it's called Hell2.0

Me: o.o
I think you're making that up so I don't steal your brownie

Him: It's usually saved for people who stop at yellow lights and the woman who uses up every washing machine at the laundromat.
And you better not steal my brownie Gabriella!

Me: ummm too late.
om nom nommm.

YOU MAKE ME WANNA LA LA, IN THE KITCHEN ON THE FLOOOOOR

Yeah, idk. ahaha.


Yesterday was bad. I had a dream about Him, and it went downhill from there. I was tied all day, we had to do an exercise of doom in gym class, dance was cancelled, and so we had an optional practice to go over the dances so far. Which I thought would be fun, but turned out to be horrible. And severely pissed me off. And made me insecure. >.>
Then I came home and went to sleep ridiculously early, and when I woke up I swear I passed out or something, because I felt like a truck had hit me and I was tired all of first hour.
But, today we only had to run three laps in gym, and then we played Badminton all hour! I like this unit a lot. It's easy and I don't suck at it! yay!
Then we basically had a free period in Speech, to work on our Speeches which we are presenting Tuesday. I have to interview people for mine, and I can't get a hold of who I need to for that! Argh.
The rest of the day was good. We played my favorite song in Chorus, had a good lunch, and Mrs. Massey was stupider than usual but that's alright.

and then Lyndsey and I kidnapped Seamus after school and drove around, then Zak called him and was all "I'M IN A TEN FOOT HOLE HELP MEEE" so we turned around cause Seamus wanted to see Zak being stuck in a hole. but obviously Zak was kidding and then we hung out with Zak and Seamus for a bit, until Seamus decided to be a good student and get his homework done before rehearsal. So, Lyndsey and I went to the silver spider and I got a pretty necklace! And then I found out that practice was cancelled for tonight.

And now I am talking to like, five billion different people and having some epically awesome conversations.

I contribute my good day to the sleeping pills I've been taking. I didn't take them the night before and my life suuuucked. Moral of the story? Take your drugs.

My Weekend.

The more I visit my old town, the more I realize how good of a choice moving here was. Nevertheless, My weekend was pretty epic.

Friday

I got up at like 9:45 in the morning, and packed and cleaned my room and stuff. and then I left at around 10:30-ish. And drove. And drove. And drove some more. And jammed to music. Then I finally got there, and no one was home but my mom had left a note to go pick Ian up from school. Tylical. Well he didn't have a phone on him, so I had like 5 different people track him down and had the front office call him, and then I didn't see him and got bored of waiting so I left. And let me tell you, after a month of driving with normal, sane people, the RHS parking sucks. A Lot. But anyway, I went over to Michelle's for a bible study which was fun! I loved seeing my old IB friends and it was great that they had a shitton of homework and I had one worksheet to do. (Does that make me a bad person?) Anyway, then I hung out with Alexis. That was fun. We went to the furniture store at first, then came home and turned off the lights and watched all of the marblehornets entries in a row, including totheark. (If you haven't watched those yet, turn off your lights, go to http://marblehornets.wikidot.com/the-entries, scroll allll the way to the bottom where is says "suggested viewing order," and WATCH.) I love Alexis' reactions to things. They are PRICELESS.

Saturday

I woke up at like, 11. Haha, I'm so lazy. But, I hung out with my family for a while, then went to the state speech tournament and hung out with some of my old speechies. It was fun to see people dressed up in suits and that none of the stress has left, but it was also a little strange cause only three people from RHS made it to state this year. It was so empty without the entire PIR cast, and the few andom people who didn't get to state but managed to skip school for a day anyway. Well after Finals were posted, I left to hang out with Austin because no one broke. ]: That was fun except he kept poking me and I did not appreciate it. After he had to leave for work, I was hanging out with family and I had the sudden urge to go ice skating. So, I called michelle and we went ice skating. Which was FANTASTIC, even if figure skates hurt like hell and now I have a blister. Hockey skates were better, but didn't have a toe pick which pissed me off. Then we went back to my house and watched House, when she left at ten and Amanda came over and was telling me all about snowball! (Which is tonight, I couldn't go. booo.) Then she left, and after doing my homework, I fell asleep at like 2 in the morning.

Sunday

I got woken up by Mackenzie, who came over with heart shaped doughnuts. She is the most random person. But we talked for a bit, then my mom wanted to go to the mall so we went. And I got a LOT of new clothes. Me=happy camper. Mackenzie was stealing my phone and was texting Zak, whom I have a sneaking suspicion hates us now. :c So then Mackenzie left and I got my stuff together, drove home, and now I'm here. Michelle is coming over tomorrow! I'M STOKED.

They say that true love hurts, but this could almost kill me.

So you want to know what's not fun at all?
When someone burns you a Ke$ha CD, but all the tacks show up on your iPod as "Track 1, Track 2, etc." and so you are stuck listening to EVERY SINGLE SONG, then typing all the lyrics into Google so that you can type the legit name in.

Not that I'm doing that right now or anything >___>

Anyways. Today was cool. We picked a logo for High School musical. My gym teacher wasn't there and I played Wrestling oom Dodgeball for the first time, which was mildly terrifying and slightly awesome cause the floors were all squishy O_o

Then the rest of the day went by, I had a choir lesson which was cool but the stupid Do Re Mi symbols keep throwing me off. And the Ta Ka Di Mi rhythms. ARGHH. Then she made me read our newest song in French, and I have a sneaking suspicion that she's going to make me sing it in front of the class. but whatevs.

Then I came home and took a nap. there were little kids running around though, and I was half asleep when I could hear them in the other room talking about how I got the lead. then Chloe was all 'SHE HAS TO KISS SEAMUSSSSSSSS!' It was quite funny.

Then I had reheasal which was exhausting but fun. ummm I don't have much else to say.

I'm so tired and not at the same time. I have to pack and stuff, then tomorow I'm leaving early in the morning for P-TOWNNNN!

Blarghhh.

So, we had first rehearsal today. It was Seamus and I for an hour, and we got through all our songs, and then the last song the whole cast kind of piled in and was listening to us sing O_o So then the music director put me as an alto instead of a soprano (which is what I usually sing) cause I sight-read and Gabriella is supposed to sing wayyyy low so I have to practice. uhhhh.

So we ended up getting through like two songs with the whole cast, cause there was a lot of goofing around. But after, we were hanging out, and Zak kept playing with the ring around my neck ahaha. Then Seamus was all "ONE RING" and I was all "TO RUUULE THEM ALL..." and it just went downhill from there. I think Mr. Stevens did a good job pairing us together.

The rest of the day was boring, except for seventh hour we had no teacher because she didn't feel like getting a sub for one hour. So, we all went to the library to "do homework," aka talk to Jarett and Josh and Marcus and look at bad pickup lines. That was interesting.

So, yeah. Now I'm arguing with Seamus about who is cooler: Troy or Gabriella. Uhm, obviously Gabriella is waaaaaaay cooler than Troy. [:

WHUDDUP TYLER, YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO ANNOY ME UNTIL I BLOGGED TODAY. <3

I don't know what to name this post.

Arghh. Okay. So today, it was hard to get up. idk why. I went to bed at a fairly decent time, but whatever. So I was really sleeepy today, we had mock interviews in Speech and had to do a ten minute run-walk in gym. The bad thing about having gym first hour, besides everything, is the fact that NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY YOUR HAIR WILL GET MESSED UP.

Arghh. Well anyways. Other than that today was uneventful, I got home and took a nap and when I woke up my mom was here! :D She had come to surprise my grandma for her birthday (I had known this ahead of time already) and she brought me some stuff too :D

So then we ate, and chatted, then it was time to go to the first cast meeting! That was great. But I was late cause my mom lost her keyes. Well we had a cast readthrough, and it has been confirmed that I have to kiss Seamus at the end of the musical.

AND ON TOP OF THAT, we have two performances the last saturday, and at the first performance they are going to project the lyrics on a screen so people can sing along with us. Let me just demonstate how this makes me feel:
>__________>

Anyways. I left my phone in the auditorium. So now I have to go to school early to get it. LAME. and I have practice right after school, Seamus and I have to learn our songs P: lol I'm lame. Now I'm pincurling my hair. Life is goooood.

I'm really bored and waiting for pictures to upload

blaaaaargh.

Today was boring, too. We slept in because of last night's adventures so I didn't even wake up till like noon which is late for me. (Even if Tyler thinks I sleep till like six at night.)

So, anyway, my grandparents exchanged valentines day gifts and they bought me something too :D The extended edition of Return of the King, which my dad already had that one but at least this way I own my own copy. Now I need the other two. :D

Then we went out for mexican food which was good, and came home and watched the two towers, which was funny and my grandparents made more comments. My grandpa was trying to guess how many piercings they could fit on the elf ears.

Now i'm here and there's not a lot more to say! So, yeah. okay bai.

I think moving here was the right decision.

So at this concert last night, they were playing the song “Jump.” And this old lady got really drunk and tripped over the amp, and did a sort of backwards somersault into the band area and landed on her face. If that wasn’t epic enough, the next line in the song that they sang was “You’ve got to roll with the punches…” AHAHAHAHAAA.

It was a lot of fun, we were jamming (even though they played '80s music and I don't like that kind of music) and dancing, but then all the adults got wasted and then it was kind of just old people stealing our dancing space and grinding on each other and a number of other INNAPROPRIATE THINGS.

But then we went home and I just kinda went to sleep. and now I'm here. And basically, that was my night. I hung out with Zak, Lyndsey, Rachael, Jarett, Hanna, and these other people who I don't know their names. And I stole Zak's fedora and Lyndsey's hipster glasses and Zak said I was the 3rd whitest dancer he had ever seen :c but it's funny cause Seamus was the whitest dancer he's ever seen apparently, and Seamus is Troy and I'm Gabriella xD

Oh yeah and Lyndsey and Rachael were trying to set me up with a band member. xD

today was exhausting.

I GOT GABRIELLA THOUGH. FUCK YES.

So I had a really wierd dream last night. I don't even remember all of it, but I know it was weirder than my usual dreams (which is like, SUPER weird.) So like, my grandma was there and so were her sisters and her dad and I wasn't supposed to talk with her or something cause she was invisible, then we moved to Singapore and we lived on top of a huge hill and I could see everything and it was all lit up with colorful lights, it was omg so beautiful. So anyways, then in my dream I had forgotten my camera at home and I was really sad. And then I got woken up fom my grandma. and I could like, barely move cause I was so tired. Which is weird, considering I actually went to bed at a decent time.

Anyway, so then school came and stuff, which was alright cause I didn't do much, plus it felt like a thursday but really it was a Friday. And after school, lyndsey and I went to my house checked the cast list, freaked out, then drove two towns over to the walmart so I could get an iPod player for my car. Then I met her boyfriend who was really nice, and stuff. :D

When we got back to my house it was like 5:30 and I had to be back at school at six to help for speech. so I went there, and was looking for something to do and I saw Seamus (Who is playing Troy)! and we were all like "HAAAAAAAAAY" and we went around the school looking for jobs to do. And I basically hung out with him and this other kid the whole night. Except for Lyndsey and I were coloring the numbers and I stole her marker so she chased me down the hall for it back and I bit her hand P:

So then we finally were allowed to go home, and then I helped my grandma take some caramel corn to our neighbor and we had to talk for a long time, now I'm home finally and about to pass outttt.

And that was my day. :D

I don't know what to name this post.

So I went to auditions and did a pretty good job, I think. and we sang and I guess it's good we're doing high school musical, cause they want my kind of voice (No vibratto). Which most musicals want you to have that. So the chorus directer was trying to get the others to stop sounding so chorus-y, and I was like I GOT THISSS.

Then I got home, and I was pretty happy with how I did even with a cold, and not even twenty minutes after I get home I get a call asking me to go BACK to the school to sing more. Which was a very confusing thing cause they like never do that. Well i got there and it looked deserted, so I was kind of creeped out especially cause I had been watching MarbleHornets with Jarett right before we left (Even if he was laughing at them. Bitch.) So it was cold and the doors were locked and there was this creepy-as-fuck stature right in front of the school. And Liz (Or whatever her name was- I can't remember. that's terrible) wouldn't answer her phone so it was like really creepy. then finally she called me and was all "OMG IM SO SORRY I FORGOT TO UNLOCK THE DOOR FOR YOU!" so then I went in and sang and stuff, they wanted me to sing louder and sound more popstar-ish. So hopefully I did that okay.

And now I'm here. kind of like, wtf just happened.

They made a lot of p-town jokes and Mr. Stevens started jumping up and down saying "SEE! I TOLD YOU!" when I used the word "Salty." haha.

Weird day. But good. And I got a 100 on my math test.

:D

Is today "Let's all dump our problems on Kaitlin day?"

Seriously. Right this moment, I'm trying to convince Austin that people do care about him and giving him advice on how to de-stressify himself. While Jacob is in the other corner telling me about how people annoy him at school and he can't listen to county songs anymore because it makes him think about his ex, and of course valentine's day is coming up so that's no help.

What the hell, people.

This has been happening all day. And when I mean all day, I mean since about 1:30 this morning. All I wanted to do was finish my damn speech so I could sleep. When Jacob logs on and starts going on about how his dad makes him feel so guilty and all of this shit. Like, I love helping people, and I wish I was better at giving advice and I even want to major in psycology. But can I please catch a fucking break?

It didn't even stop during school. Tiffany texted me and told me that school was depressing her and what should she do to fix it? And when I gave her a list of things I would do, she shot every single one of them down. Like, what the hell. Take my advice or leave it, but don't sit here and argue with me when I'm trying to help you.

Then this afternoon, I had auditions for High School Musical. Which went well, I had fun, and I got a callback for tomorrow (wooo). Then I get home and within an hour of logging onto facebook, one of my old best friends logs on, tells me that her dad was making fun of her and calling her "disgusting and fat," and that she is on the verge of starving herself. So I try to comfort her at which point she loggs off. And posts something about deleting her facebook. Let me just say that I didn't have her number, because I got a new phone, so this scared me because I would have no way to get a hold of her. I texted a bunch of people and finally got her number, made sure she was alright, and she refused to talk to me at all. This scares me. I used to be best friends with her and it hurts me to hear that their families are fucking them up so badly.

I want to fix everyone's problems. I really do. And I am there for you if you want to talk to me. But everyone bombards me at once, and to some of them is seems like they ONLY talk to me if they need help.

I'm not what I have done; I'm what I've overcome.

I didn't update yesterday because I fell asleep way early. (And by early I mean like 10:00.) Which is probably bad because I needed to do my speech... which I have to present tomorrow 2nd hour.

In other news... auditions are today and tomorrow. And of course, I woke up this morning without a voice.

LAKSGJALKJG; WHY DOES THAT ALWAYS HAPPEN RIGHT BEFORE AN AUDITION.

Also, gym sucked today. Mr. Peters was all "Ohai guise we're gunna run for five minutes okay ur done with that? time to do hurdles and ladders of death and crunches and OH YEAH YOU DON'T NEED TO STRETCH! STRETCHING IS FOR THE WEAAAAAAKKKK."

What the hell dude. you are the worst gym teacher in the history of gym teachers. >______>

Oh yeah, and I recovered a bunch of old pictures and finally posted them on facebook! I felt like a boss when I did that. That picture up there^^ is Nick Jonas from like eighth grade when they came to the civic center. Such good times <3

Say what you mean, tell me I'm right, and let the sun rain down on me.

That is my favorite song at the moment. Panic! is coming back <3>

Omg so I just watched Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship with my grandparents. Funniest thing EVARRR.

“He’s beginning to look like a pincushion!”


“Is that Gollum’s old man?”



“How does he keep his hair and fingernails so perfect all the time?”

“It must be the Elf magic.”

“You know, those keebler elves made magical cookies. Maybe these elves are just magically beautiful.”



“The hobbit feet are my favorite part <3”

And then my grandpa couldn’t get over the smoking part, and proceeded to refer to the Hobbits as “Stoners” for the rest of the movie. hahahahaaaaaa.

wait what the hell

I was looking through my old posts..... and there are a bunch missing.

O_________O

anyways. I'm making Chocolate Nutella cookies. nommmmm. That's my attempt at being somewhat productive today, as I'm sick and have been laying around all day texting and facebooking and tumblring.

I'm off to find those posts. wahhhhh.

Why is this song so relatable.

The saddest thing is you could be anything
That you could want
We could have been everything
But now we're not
Now it's not anything at all
The hardest part was getting this close to you
And giving up this dream i built with you
A fairytale that isn't coming true
You've got some growing up to do

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish i didn't have these doubts
I wish i didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish i didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and i
I wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

After all the things you put me through
Tell me why i'm still in love with you
And why am i, why am i still waiting for your call
You broke my heart
I'm taking it back from you
And taking back the life i gave to you
Life goes on before and after you
I've got some growing up to do

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish i didn't have these doubts
I wish i didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish i didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and i
I wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

It's time i said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time i said my last goodbye

I wish we could have worked it out
I wish i didn't have these doubts
I wish i didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
I wish i didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and i
I wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye

It's time i said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time i said my last goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
It's time i said my last goodbye